Peter Pan Tinks, Jubilation Uplifts.

Loo. It is a place for thought-provoking realisation of everything that surrounds us. It is a sanctuary for ideas and solutions. It is a place where Hollywood and any powerful people go to release--- figuratively.

That is just my opinion. My brightest ideas came from either my shower, sitting in the toilet (please do not visualise!) or from walking around the streets.

So coming from that statement, I am jet-lagged and reviewing my weeks. I seem to get a grip on things either too tightly or too loosely. Extremes. At the end of each issue or being in the middle of a situation, I tend to internalise immediately and pick the bright light instead.

I can still be high-strung sometimes but it’s being overshadowed by how much grace and calmness I developed throughout the years. I think I am not numb but strengthen by all the experiences I’ve encountered. Horrible as they may seem, the silver lining is bigger than the table it was laid out for.

So, I went to a cubicle and not even feeling like a golden shower, I locked the door. I stood there for 20 seconds and then Peter Pan storybook popped in my head. I went out, washed my hands, looked at my new experimental ‘do and now writing this blog. I just realised about Peter Pan’s famous line “So come with me, where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things, and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land!”

Boom. Yes, I now declare a Peter Pan Effect.

That is where I am coming from nowadays. Fine, I can have negative moments but because of my mindset of just focusing on the good things, I seem to bounce back to reality quickly and carry on and do something not to compromise my happiness. And this is how I should live—to be able to carry on with my happiness that I have earned.

No matter how my surrounding can be frustrating or not in the ideal direction as it supposed to be, it is beyond my control. What I can hold is myself and that is not going to be shattered but be built.

“You can fly, you can fly, you can fly!”

Another Frothy Wisdom from Wish' Teacup

"The best to find the best man for you is not by looking for him, but looking for yourself first."

That's one of the best things I have learned on my journey to peace of mind.

I just said that to my good amiga today, to let her know how important it is to love thyself before loving others. Woman desperately look for love in wrong places, wrong timings and for the wrong reasons. They never realise that love should come from within and for themselves to seize first, before sharing it to the world.

It really has to be a long way before getting to realise this. It even takes so much energy and courage to accept that this is the way the world works. Ego has to be set aside then kick ass in the end. What more boost of an ego to gain a wisdom like this? Too bad that most women oversee and blame the assholic men and never realise that it might be their valid mistake too.

Or maybe it was also the mistake of these assholes too... have to retract back a little bit because the cases are very complex and vast. But in the end, women, also men, have to ask themselves first: "Who am I and what do I really want? Am I worth to be with myself first?"

And I am back to blogging. I should. Too many things to share.

Re-blogging. Revived.

I disappeared and now I am back.

This is the thing about having a loose philosophy about blogging. You think about writing all the time but you are not really tied up to write just to beat deadlines. I could've written a lot more if not because of my hectic move from one country to another and not having a home connection for almost 2 months.

Ahhh... I lived without the internet... well, at least, at home because I am fully connected with 2 computers in the office but of course, I am good enough to utilise it only for work, and not leisure.

I do not really miss Manila. But I just saw this post from Bates' website (an ad agency in Sg):

Here are the top 20 changes that are happening in The Philippines.

1. From independent to mainstream.
2. From western to OPM.
3. From homosexual to homolingual.
4. From telenovelas to Asianovelas.
5. From messaging to mobile currency.
6. From homemaker to breadwinner.
7. From husband to houseband.
8. From long-haul traveler to local tourist.
9. From saving for tomorrow to living for today.
10. From haute couture to home couture.
11. From living room to cyberspace.
12. From 9 to 5 to 24/7.
13. From friendly ties to family ties.
14. From Maria Clara to femme fatale.
15. From tourists to settlers.
16. From blue collar to blue chip.
17. From flea markets to E-markets.
18. From spectator to spectacle.
19. From talking green to walking green.
20. From colonial mentality to proudly Pinoy.

It is funny and accurately true! I am not patriotic but there are things I can appreciate more about my native homeland when you're looking from afar. It is not as much but things I value morally. Looking from afar also make me feel so happy I'm out of there and I am giving myself more chance to be a global corporate-creative bitch.

I should be updating you more here. I have better chances to write much again now so I'll check in again soon.

Soulful moonchild basking under the sun!
Wish

Movember for November!

My friend, Sammy's supporting the Movember Australia (www.movember.com)

I am so fascinated and he asked me to sponsor him so I did. This was the message:

Hi All,

During Movember (the month formerly known as November) I'm growing a Mo (Mustache). That's right I'm bringing the Mo back because I'm raising money for men's health issues and being proactive in the fight against men's depression and prostate cancer.

I shall be updating you on the progress of my fine mustache in the form of a facebook album, so watch this space and laugh!

PLEASE donate to my Mo (because i'm not going to look a tool for the hell of it ok) Click this link:

https://www.movember.com/au/donate/donate-details.php?action=sponsorlink®o=1616746&country=au

and donate online using your credit card or PayPal account.
Remember, all donations over $2 are tax deductible.

The money raised by Movember is used to raise awareness of men's health issues and donated to the Prostate Cancer Foundation of Australia and beyondblue - the national depression initiative. The PCFA and beyondblue will use the funds to fund research and increase support networks for those men who suffer from prostate cancer and depression.

Thanks all,
Sammy

I love charities and causes. So just you know. I hope to get wealth soon so I will have more cause ;)

Morbidity and Life

I was aware of 4 death news in the span of 10 days. Death is really inevitable.

As I always say, like from Robbie Williams' song Come Undone, "I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to". True enough, life is so short that you have to extend possibilities and stretch it in ways that you could or more than you could expect. I am into gore and goth so lately, I celebrate life and death in my own ways.

I just needed a small post, connected to my blog entry at my collaboration blog with my best friend http://tallsmallshow.livejournal.com/10404.html - about a great person who is well-loved by anybody who came across his path of life, Manny Distor. I went to his funeral last week and spoken to his sister, Luisa, who is holding up pretty well, regardless of her sudden loss of her 37-year old health and sports buff brother. He expanded his life to the extreme fullest regardless of dying young. One heart attack, as nobody's aware, even himself of his condition. Gone in the soils of the earth but will never be forgotten.

I just wanted to post our production pics here (circa 2006), in memory of Manny:

Italianni's @ Greenbelt 3

Manny as Brent in the mobisode demo Love & Sex

It was fun. You will be so missed Manny...

Everybody, embrace life and love. Death is just another beginning.

The Grandieur of Prizes and Settling Consolation of Defeatists

People don't seem to like accepting and keeping "the prize". They love "the settle".

I got dissed by my room mate yesterday. She welcomed her ex that I absolutely dislike in my pad. I just got back from my ole hometown so I just dropped my overnight backpack, walk out the door without anything but my house keys. I started walking down 8 flights down instead of the lift, being so upset to walk it off. I ended up in my neighbor's place, J,  to chill.

J and I talked about it until I felt better. Life. Friendships. Relationships. We both have the same idea. That lots of people in this world don't like "the prize" when they have it. People take this for granted, when they have the best person for them. They are complacent and ungrateful. Or sometimes, freaked out to have something not melodramatic but perfect.

Instead, they always go for "the settle". They think that they cannot have or the perfect is unachievable so they settle to the one that is easy to have, undermining what they really need. Now they delude themselves that this is the one for them and void the idea of "the prize".

Remember that before you get "the prize", you have to go through some difficulties and entry forms to fill up... the works. Too much hardwork at first, so people, give up and give in to their weak souls. But the difference of this against "the settle" is that the fruits of accepting your prize would be a lifelong happiness that you would never regret, rather than settling to something because it is easy-- that you already have dedicated much of your time to it, that you have invested on it for so long, you deny yourself of something that must be something greater.

I settled a lot in my last relationship. And it crushed me to bits only to see that I shamed myself by doing so. I pulled myself back up and here I am, aware of what I deserve.

I do not want to be "the settle" and I do not think I am.

I cannot have "the settle" because I need "the prize".

I can only write. I may or may not influence or open other people's eyes but here is my wisdom gained. Something to share.

Can I have my prize now?

Bitterness in A Sealed Jar

MSN:
Jeroen says:
Yeah I know, I have to talk to her tonight. I want to go back to being friends.
wish frozenlipz says:
good. life is too short for any of us drag someone along without any guarantees.
wish frozenlipz says:
we have to be one less bitter person in this world.

ONE LESS BITTER PERSON IN THIS WORLD -- I just realised that. Now that I have grown and learned so much so far in my dear life, I shall avoid to hurt anyone and save as much people as I could to feeling bitter. Not just me, but all of us who's been hurt, been happy, been stabbed in the back... life is too short to drag some feelings of uncertainty for years.

The Confusion Stage: to stay or to leave?

It is still better to hurt now than later. We tend to chose the latter. To keep on going and checking the "what ifs" to come to life. But usually, we do not trust our instincts and stay instead of leaving. You end up chaining yourself and dragging the other person to the sand of wonders and instability. We tend to get complacent, loathe and cheat away because we are selfish enough not to think of what is the best to do but pat ourselves in the head with what will make us feel better or secured. On the other hand, we also try not to break someone thinking if you stop now, they will be shattered... until we cannot stretch the rubber anymore and it can break much harder than it was before.

The Cheater's Testing Ground of Escape: Karmic

But then again all of these are relative. Each situation in our lives are unique that we just have to be conscientious enough to do what is right for ourselves and others.

Another chance to vent. And ponder. Things you can learn from just a couple of words from a chat away...

The difference of "like" and "love" are completely similar yet different in nature. It is just like mistaking love to infatuation or like to lust. As much as we want this world to be simple, its expensiveness, we usually cannot afford. But achievable. We don't even need a bail-out to bail out of these painful decisions in love but I reckon the best way to realise what is the real thing is by looking at our own selves and know what you really want out of this person we feel about. The risk factor is about the other whether to respond the same way.

The Clueless The Like Led by Ego

S/He loves me, S/He loves me not Stages

I tend to loop my writings since they all make sense, considering two sides of the coin.

It is sad to know and be aware that people can separate physical from emotions. That "what happened" is nothing but. That "it was fun" and that's it. That "pretend it didn't happen" and forgotten. That "I am not ready" but I do it anyway. I guess it is everybody's fault. I always say "nothing will happen if someone says no." Albeit we allow it all the time. Maybe we needed intimacy at that time... but is intimacy so tainted now that intimacy is nothing but physical?

Just too... Physical: Emptiness Aftermath

I browse online everyday, looking around, knowing some of them and at the end of the day, people are looking for the real thing. Perfection is even being overlooked at because I can see that people cannot stand perfect. They cannot stand what is real. They want it and when they get it, they run away. I sometimes am idealistic and think that if we can stitch all these longing people by pairs, the world will have less heartbreaks-- again it is impossible.

Stalker Selfless


Unrequited Love

In denial: Blinded

In denial: Numb

Time ticks and never stops. The world will carry on with its seasons and reasons and we keep on breathing. People will constantly break and make... and evolve to better or worse. As much as I could, I will try to be one less of a bitter person in this universe... though I am breaking at times.

Wish in the Future.